Last week I started recording the Indie Roller podcast which has been in the pipeline for as long as I can remember. Which reminds me when in the the mid-00s I had ‘learn to vlog’ at the top of my to-do list, year after year. Both activities require a higher than I’m comfortable with level of visibility, which requires a certain dollop of confidence I don’t feel most days, which requires a rock solid inner belief when mine wobbles like a jelly.
Trying to take those leaps with my Indie Biz can sometimes trigger the opposite result: inaction, because I’ve disappeared down the rabbit hole…
What if I can’t figure out the technology?
What if my questions aren’t probing enough?
What if it’s not relevant?
What if I get a poor review?
What if no-one listens to it?
What if I freeze and don’t know what to say?
What if when people get to know the ‘real’ me, it turns them off?
I’m not a podcaster, what *am* I thinking?
I CAN’T DO THIS.
It can be a murky downwards spiral into the pits of THE FEAR.
How do you pull yourself out of the pit?
Well, for me, I often feel like in the moment I can achieve anything I want to. I have tiny sparks of ‘I can do this’ before the mistakes of the past and my fear of the future all pile in and make me feel indecisive and paralysed.
Being present and taking action when those little sparks are flying is really how I get stuff done. Those sparks can be far and few between by the way so it’s of the utmost importance that I spring into action on those days. My business depends upon it.
I then ask myself why…
Why do I wanted to do a podcast? Am I jumping on a bandwagon of the things I think I *should* be doing or does this idea move me closer to my vision and my goals?
I’ve asked myself several times why podcasting is a good platform to explore with Indie Roller and I keep coming back to the fact it’s a brilliant medium for business owners to listen to whilst they’re working. Whether you’re packing orders, designing on the computer or doing the washing up at the end of the day – it’s a hands-free and hopefully engaging way to pick up what could be golden nuggets to make your next move from.
A few of those sparks flew at the start of the year and I sprung into action. It’s amazing what can be achieved in a short space of time when it’s coming from a place of ‘I CAN DO THIS’.
I’m 7 episodes into recording 12 for my first series which will be RSSSSSSSSSS’d into the world by the end of this month.
If you’re currently feeling like you don’t want to feel the fear and do it anyway then curl up and enjoy the darker slower days. Then when your spark comes a-calling you’ll be rested enough to hear it and act upon it.